Going through Jacob's old school papers I have kept for years and years and years.....I came across this and it almost brought me to tears...He must have been in first or second grade!!!

Love True Love

Must have been around the same age....

We moved here to the odessa area in 2003 so Jeremy could work for Flying Star....here is Jacob's drawing of that.

And another:)

Life Lessons:)

I had a little life lesson in the car this morning on the way to school....I was behind a man in a Ford Explorer that was going along fine. We hit a school zone(20 MPH)...and when we came out of the school zone the man still continued to go 20 MPH....I didn't have enough time to pass him before the stop sign so I was there patiently behind him. He puts on his blinker to turn and I let out this huge gust of hot air.....I'm thinking I am going to have to be behind this man in this Ford Explorer with 7 antennas on his car going 20 MPH STILL for the next 10 blocks......I had a solution that was not the smartest solution....I passed him in a turning lane....big time NO NO!! The lights come on behind me....I realize I'm in trouble and rightfully so....The officer comes to my window...."Can I see your licence ma'am?" I don't have it with me...I hand him my insurance card.... He tells me that I have committed one of the most dangerous and Illegal acts.....I reply ...by passing someone...(in my head I'm thinking Lindsey shut up)....He says , "Yes, you see that solid yellow line."..."that means no passing"....okay okay okay...yes sir yes sir yes sir.....so he walks back to his car....The kids are saying to me, Mom, why didn't you tell him that man was reading a book while he was driving???? Mom you should tell him that(the man really was doing this) ...this is so stupid..and on and on.....So the officer comes back to my car and tells me to make better choices and have a good day....I roll up the window and began to tell the kids something I have told them a million times but I have never got to be the example with their little eyes watching....You see kids, it doesn't matter what the other person is doing or not doing...I made a decision to pass him and that got me in trouble...I did it and I had to face the consequences....(the man in the explorer is still driving reading his book going 20 MPH somewhere and I was sitting there with an officer about to get a ticket....) what we choose to do is a reflection on us...we do not have control of any one else....only ourselves....So we have to make the right decision all the time no matter what...little life lesson of the day...

lindsey

How to Follow!

So...a couple of my family members and some pretty tech savvy friends have asked, " How do I follow you?"   I decided to write a post showing how to do just this....BTW...in some things life is much easier with a google account...and you don't have to have a Gmail to do this....I created Jeremy one with his work email address;);)....So here we go!!!!

So first you come to this page....and you either got here by clicking on link or typing in Sewpreshious.blogspot.com.......  either way this is what you will see!!! 

You will scroll down...not very far and on the right hand side you will see something that looks like this......

yes...I only have two followers..... One which is my husband....I'm not sure if that really counts...any who.....You will click on JOIN THIS SITE.....from there you will be directed to a page that looks like this.............

So you can sign in and follow with one of the following accounts....If you don't have one of these accounts you can sign up for a google account....as I mentioned earlier...I hope this helps the ones who have asked......Happy Monday:):)

HaPpY BiRtHdAy...MOMMA!!!!

Terri Lynn Shuffield

aka...the best momma in the world

Today is a very special day!!! It is my mothers birthday!  February 20, 1956, the Lord brought into this world a little girl that would face many challenges growing up and eventually become the best mother any little girl could ask for....  I love her more than any words can express.  She has taught me how to be loving, kind, forgiving, a great mother, a great wife and a great woman!  I love her for that.  She has been married to the love of her life for a century it seems....maybe not that long but for a long time.  She is a seamstress/quilter/knitter/crocheter/lover of coffee/lover of the lights of vegas/lover of her home/lover of WINNIE THE POOH/ lover of pretty flowers/ lover of hot tea/lover of her family/lover of new Cadillac/ lover of her friends/ and most importantly Lover of the Lord....I think I have inherited some of those loves....just maybe....I am going to share several pictures of my mother....some present...some not so present....just a little glimpse into her life....the woman I love more than life itself.  These pictures are in no order they are in the order I pull them out of a file:)...

Jordan and Big B....Brayden...

Bray Bray.....love ....

I noticed I didn't have many of Momma's favorite son...so here is my bubba in action....

And Again.....

Our family!!! ....well back then it was...its much bigger now...but the one at the center still remains as she was then.....such a wonderful mother.....love you momma ......

You is Kind......You is Smart.....You is Important.......

All my life you have taught me to believe these things about my self and on your birthday and every day of the year I thank you for that......

Jacob and Bray....

Handsome boy on Jordan's bday....

The next couple of pictures are of a privat photo shoot we held a littel while back in Amarillo.....

Jordan...the star....and Jacob...the star

They are some tall kids

These two foxy ladies are the mommas to those tall kids......

our children were making us laugh and someone caught that on film...i am thankful.

Momma....this blog is a memory lane for you....and hint of where we have been and a peek into where we are going and alot of where we are right now.....lovin life....it hasn't all been easy and it hasn't all been hard...but with your love we have made it through with heads held high and hearts full of love......I love you so much.....

I hope that wonderful man of yours treats you to a nice dinner and lots of love today!! 

Linny Penny..

Walmart

 

Okay, So we all know how Walmart works.....right?????  If....you go at like.........any time the sun is up ...........there are going to be people there shopping and there will be like four cashiers maybe six......

If......you go when the sun is down .........then there will still be people there shopping and they will be down to two cashiers maybe four..because....one side closes at like 10 or 11.......

So.....next time you go to walmart and all the carts are in the parking lot and people are walking to the store from all directions......you will be waiting in line!!!!!!!  Period...that is just the way it is....I myself do not have a problem with going to walmart....they have everything I need...including magazines at the checkouts so I will be entertained while I am waiting.....

TIP OF THE DAY.......If....you go to walmart at anytime during the day or early evening.....and you only have a few things...and nothing weighable......you can sneak over to the CAMERA SECTION, ELECTRONICS SECTION, JEWELRY SECTION OR the GARDENING SECTION......  They very rarely have a line.....I don''t know why people haven't figured this out yet......If you try that at TARGET they get a little snippy but do it anyways!!!!!

:)  hope your next Walmart experience is GREAT!  if its not please don't stand in line and gripe about it!  The cashiers don't run the store ....some one more important does:)

Have a Great Day:):):)

Angel Baby

Mackenzie Lynn Segura

February......When thinking about February many think of love....Valentine's Day...President's Day...lots of things.....When I think of February four things come to mind...The first...My sissy will have a birthday on every February 12!! Then will come my mother's birthday on February 20th....And then will come a date that I will never forget and will hold deep in my heart, February 21, 2005, the day Mackenzie Lynn Segura was born and passed.   And then I will remember the very next day..the day of her laying to rest.

The title says it all....Angel Baby.  She is literally our Angel now.  You see in 2005 our family experienced an unexpected loss.  For nine months we were expecting a precious baby girl, Mackenzie Lynn Segura…….Mackenzie....Lynn....Segura.....Such a beautiful name for a beautiful girl...I  battled with Niesha over how to spell her name.....as if she was my child...I thought it should have been McKenzie....lol...the memories...I'm sure Niesha told me something like, "Well, she is not your daughter!!!"  I loved her like she was mine... Just as I do Jordan!  God had other plans for her.  She never ever took a breath outside her mother's tender loving womb.  She stayed in there and grew and grew and played and played and kicked and kicked and then when her time to enter this world was coming close, she was taken home to be with our Lord and Savior in a place we can only dream about..........I remember the call vaguely(I am sad to say vaguely). All I recall from the frantic call  was that the doctors couldn't find a heartbeat for my sister's baby and I had to leave and I had to leave right then.....I lived four hours away from my family.  Making that four hour trip knowing I wouldn't make it in time to see her little face before the Funeral Home took her was killing me inside.  I remember little about the drive there but one thing I do remember is listening to some CD's kennah(Jeremy's sister) had made me a while back....there was a song on one of the CD's that struck a cord within me and I played it over and over again...Pour My Love On You.....My brother in law, Brooks Grant was singing it.....I cried and repeated the song....cried and repeated the song....cried and called my mom and told her I had a song I wanted played at the Graveside Memorial....she granted my wish and it was played....and I cried some more....here are the lyrics:

Pour My Love On You

I don't know how….to say exactly how I feel

And I can't begin….to tell you what your love has meant

I'm lost for words

Is there a way to show…..the passion in my heart

Can I express….. how truly great I think you are

You're my dearest friend

Lord this is my desire…...to pour my love on you

CHORUS:

Like oil upon your feet

Like wine for you to drink

Like water from my heart

I pour my love on you

With praises like the perfume

I lavish mine on you

Till every drop is gone

I pour my love on you

Is there a way….to show the passion in my heart

Can I express….how truly great I think you are,

My dearest friend

Lord this is my desire…...to pour my love on you

CHORUS

So at the time of listening to this song...my sister was on my mind .....I wanted to pour my love on her....You see she is my dearest friend.....and it crushed my heart not to be there with her that day, at that hour, at that minute, even down to the second that she heard the news and then had to deliver her precious Angel Baby....

I must add here that Jordan Ashley Segura (which I helped name also) was our first Angel Baby...and Mackenzie was and addition to the Angel Baby team....

 I don't recall exactly, but I'm sure I got there, took my kids to Mick and Bev's house and rushed to the hospital.  Mackenzie was taken a just moments before my arrival. Niesha was exhausted, confused and hurting.  From that moment it seems like I was in some sort of fast forward machine not able to think or process what was happening.....we had a funeral to plan.....clothes to buy......flowers to be delivered....family to call.....a nine year old baby girl to console....a sister to hug and hold and cry with..... a mother to love who just lost her grandchild....a daddy to hold who just lost his grandchild....a brother to hug(a great big bear) and cry with.....a stepfather(wonderful man) to reach out to for comfort - he was absolutely amazing through all of this.....and most of all a niece to bury that I never got to meet.... just might have been the hardest day of my life.... 

Today, while going through my stash of Mackenzie memories, I was looking at the pictures of her laying in Niesha's arms after delivery and she looked so peaceful.  So sweet....so loving....As I am reading over all the things I have in my Mackenzie folder I read on the printout for her services that Lindsey Wheeler had WORDS OF LOVE.....I did??....I wonder what those were...did I say something at her graveside...and so I dug a little more in my stash and in fact I did have words...and here they are:

Mackenzie Lynn Segura

Mackenzie Mackenzie kinda sounds like Lindsey.

Kenzie Kenzie is her name from me!!!

She will always be in my heart.

Niesha and Jordan are two of the strongest bravest people I know!!!  They have been through alot together and always make it through with heads held high, Sometimes a little too high but high!!  our love for them will carry them through this.  God has a plan for every soul and his plan for Kenzie Kenzie is to be with Him.  She will never know hurt, pain, sorry or grief.  She will never know the madness and sadness of this world.

HOW AWESOME!!!  She went straight from her mother to our Father in Heaven!!

Love Always

In Him

Aunt Linny.

The hospital gives out these little cards for Bereavement Services...and they put Mackenzie's footprints and hand prints on them....on one side of the card is a leaf curled up and a teardrop on the inside of the leaf

...on the back of the small card is Mackenzie's footprints and some writing...it says:  The leaf with the teardrop reflects both intense suffering of loss and hope for the future.  Though fallen, the leaf maintains its vitality symbolizing hope.  It cradles the teardrop with its upturned edges creating a sense of comfort.  As seasons change, so do feelings.  Just as there is winter and spring, there is sadness and hope..

 So with lots of valium and the support of our family we made it through February 22, 2005.It was a special time with special people...you see Richard had buried his father not long before this...so Danny Shuffield - Richard's brother and a pastor was in Amarillo.He was asked to do Mackenzie's service and so he stayed in town a couple extra days and granted us that wish.It was all God's timing.

My sweet Angel Baby was born at 0117 February 21, 2005.  She was 17 3/4 inches long, and weighed 5lbs 7 3/4 oz.   So precious.

The holding of our hands is the strength and weaknesses of each of us passing back and forth and back and forth.....if not for love being the tie that binds where would we all be?

Jordan wrote a sweet poem that is now on the back of sweet girl's headstone; it was also printed on the inside left page of Mackenzie's memorial handout....it reads..

The Mansions Of Heaven

This world, however beautiful, was never meant to be

The place that we would call our home for all eternity.

And though we would not choose to leave,

A loving God knows best,

And in His time, He lifts us to a place of peace and rest.

For He has built a mansion where His children will abide,

Free from pain and sorrow, forever at His side,

He said He'd never leave us to face our trials alone,

And though sometimes we fail Him, He never fails His own.

And even when our choices are less than He would ask,

He knows when human courage is unequal to the task.

We cannot judge what happens,

Though tears and questions start -

We only see what is visible - God sees into the heart....

And though there may be many things

That we cannot explain,

We can be sure it breaks His heart

To see His children's pain.

In lovin arms, he bears us to a quest place apart

Where He mends the wounded spirit

And heals the broken heart.

And though these ones we love so much

Have left our present sight

And passed into a better world of majesty and light,

Someday we'll be together in our Father's home above,

Where we'll thank Him for His mercy

And praise Him for His love.

A sweet lady from bible class sent this to me.

 

Today I remember Mackenzie and jot down all my thoughts and memories.  I loved her from the day I found out about her conception and I still love her today.   She is my angel...I know she is sitting at the right hand of God....

Valentine's Day

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Get your own

I have much to say about this holiday and every gift giving holiday for that matter:).  I happen to live with the most wonderful man in the whole entire world and I have been blesssed to call him husband for almost 15 YEARS now!! I know.....that is a long time and I am not old enough to have been married that long!  Yes I know...  It is a fact though.. and one I take for granted far too often.  Back to Valentine's Day...I almost got distracted..... In the Wheeler Family...we do not exchange many gifts during the gift giving holidays...except with our children.. Between parents we do not and there are a few reasons why.  Almost every morning I wake up I have this.....

Which is my coffee ready for me when I get out of bed...NOTICE: that it doesn't have a special little timer that tells it what time to start and stop and how to brew....It is an on and off switch that someone turns on every morning...which would be my hubby...

If you have ever been to my house you will notice that my carpets are usually shampooed....he runs that crazy, loud, dirt sucking machine...I do not know how to operate it and when I have tried, I have failed...miserably!

If you have ever spoke to me or know anything about me you know that I am currently a SAHM and I attend college(I am taking off this semester)...never the less...I am able to do these two huge things BECAUSE I have a husband that provides for that.

If you know anything about Compass Academy you know that my children have to take their lunches to school every day.  Most of those days their daddy prepares their luches the night before....for some reason he makes them better than I do?????  This all came about when I was sick and he made them...  and he started something they won't let him quit:). 

If you know ANYTHING about me, you know that I am not a cook....so you guessed it! Mr. Wheeler is the cook in our house most of the time....Although I did cook last night:)  Just sayin....

Do I like material things...yes I do...infact I like them alot....

I have a new(well new to me)  car that I absolutely love more than any car I have ever owned...and I picked it out by myself:).  I have all kinds of fun gadgets that I enjoy playing with..  A couple sewing machines that I work with every now and then....A computer I am typing this on right now....A camera I will post pictures from in a bit... A phone I love to talk on and text and take pictures with... I know, run on sentence...A new tv in my room so that we may watch the weather channel at night before going to sleep...if you know him you know he LOVES the weather channel.....

I also love the things that you can not EVER put a price tag on....watching our WONDERFUL three children...I know they are not always wonderful but they are children and we all know how that goes....today they are wonderful...lol.....I love watching them crowd around and hang on their daddy every night when he comes in....I love that I get to live with my best friend every day of the week....every week of the year and every year of my life from here on out....  I love that some days he may bring me some thing special or text me something really sweet or something for my eyes only:). I love that he has grown to a place that he takes his family to church and tells our children how important the Lord is..... I love that every day or mostly every day I wake up to Valentine's Day, Christmas Day, Birthday, and Anniversary... They are after all just numbers on the Calendar.  Tomorrow will be February 15 and I will feel just as much love as I do today on February 14....

For all of my friends and loved ones who freak when my reponse to the question, " What did you get for _____________  Day?".  My response is usually, " We don't really exchange gifts."

Which I guess I could name off all those things listed and many many more...


There is another side to this story...it is Jeremy's side...He is not here or I would let him type out his response...I can tell you though I do not do as much for him as he does for me..... Daily I am searching for the balance....